Today has been long. We left camp early this morning and stopped for breakfast. I waited until after we finished eating and then broke the news to the kids. I knew that it would scare them if I cried, so I held myself together. I told them that I needed surgery tomorrow. Jackie was confused. She said are you doing surgery or having surgery? So funny. I explained everything to them. And told them that I have cancer, and about the surgery tomorrow. Ben cried a little, but I reassured them that I would be fine. And that the cancer would be gone after the surgery. And that I needed them to help take care of me for a while. They had a lot of questions, which I answered. And then they seemed ok.
Then we drove home for about 8 hours. As we pulled up to the house, I had another wave of panic about tomorrow. My parents were here waiting for me when we got home. Just seeing them made me emotional, but I had to hide what I was feeling. I didn't want the kids to see me sad.
I so appreciate all of the messages, phone calls, and texts. I don't feel much like talking now, but I feel everyone's support. I have a pretty big cheering squad! The surgery is tomorrow. I am supposed to be at the hospital by 7am. First thing is an injection of dye to help identify the sentinel lymph node for that part of the surgery. The actual procedure is scheduled to start at 12:30 and will last 5 hours. David will make a post on this blog when I am finished.
I will be happy when this surgery is in my rearview mirror and I can focus more clearly on the horizon.
Love,
Lauri
Hi Girl,
ReplyDeleteIt's late Sunday night and I just visited your blog. I love it. It is so you - real and brave. We will ALL be thinking of you tomorrow - which will be a lot of positive energy coming your way. You will be focusing on the horizon very soon now.
Will keep an eye for David's post after surgery.
xoxoxoxo